trust is something that can take years to gain

but it takes an instant to lose.

I've learned that the last few days.
so many people lost my trust.
and i don't ever think i can trust them again.

i really gained the knowledge of what people thought of me.
and I've finally realized i don't care anymore.
not intended to sound rude or mean.
i try so hard for people to like me when in the end all im doing is changing me for someone else to be happy & its not worth it.

this last week has been really hard on me.
we are dealing with so much in my house right now.
emotions are going insane & i feel like this is my only place to let it all out.
not alot of my friends understand what im going through right now.
its such a hard thing to deal with.
my dad has been crying alot lately.
his misses his daughter from his old wife.
his daughter hates him & wont let him see his own grandson.
i feel so bad when their's tears in his eyes and knowing theirs nothing i can do to fix that.
it really hurts me to see him like this.

we aren't doing good either money wise.
do you ever think that one day you can wake up and not have a home?
i sure do and trust me, its not a good feeling.
i feel like everything is coming crashing down on us.
its the wrong time but then again is their ever a right time?
i dont think so.
ive learned in just a matter of 2 days that you have to appreciate the things you already have.
sometimes you just want more & more in life but if its meant to be, it will happen.
i believe in fate & everything happens for a reason

the other day, i bought a necklace that on one side says
"love the life you live"
and the other side says
"live the life you love"

i need this necklace.
as really stupid as this may sound.
this necklace every time i look at it.
it gives me comfort that everything at the end of the day will be ok.
im not lucky ; i just believe in fate.
everything happens for a reason
and even though you may not like it.
whatever doesn't kill you ; makes you stronger.

the other night me & melissa, my best friend.
got into this huge argument which ended on a really bad note.
we didnt talk for 3 days.
i cried all 3 days.
because i wanted to talk to her about the problem, but i couldn't seeing as she was the problem
i felt like this little girl lost in this huge world.
i had noone to talk to seeing as melissa i can tell anything & everything too.
we were both being stubborn about the whole situation until she final fixed everything.
i was glad she did because i didn't know how much more i could handle.

I just really want to thank Kevin, Nick & Joe Jonas for just being them
they give me hope each day.
they tell me to reach for my dreams & let nothing stop me.
they show me that its ok to be a good kid and stil have fun doing it.
they really show me appreciation for everything you have
i love these 3 boys like their my own brothers.
"take time and appreciate" <3

so do i believe in fate?
apparently.
i wish at 11:11 every night for the same exact thing.
and i believe one day, that wish will come true
just believe.
"a dream is a wish your heart makes"
and if you really want it to happen ; trust me it willl

but before i leave, im going to leave you with this quote

“Don’t criticize what you don’t understand, son. You never walked in that man’s shoes.” - Elvis

don't go judging people or starting drama with people you dont even know.
just be nice to everyone with a smile on your face.
you never know what that person is going through & you never know if your smile or kinda words make them feel better.

be positive about everything; its the best way to live.

tons & tons of love
Krystle Kayla <3